Darned if you Do, Darned if you don't

At work Friday, I came in a little early to work. Like I normally do. I opened up the office, logged on all the computers and prepared the office for the day. My coworker decided she was going to come in an hour late. Fine with me. The day before we had a problem with a student doing things she shouldn't be doing during a test. This student caused a bunch of confusion in the office the day before. So I thought it would be a good idea to create some forms to document incidents in the office.

The whole idea was to work on it. Pass it along to my supervisor and she would inturn pass in on to the director if she approved of my idea. However, my helpful gesture wasn't recieved that way. My supervisor called the office to see what was going on in the office. I told her that nothing was going on and I informed her of what I was doing. She told me to wait, discontinue what I was working on and that she would be in the office soon.

She gets to the office and tells me to sit down like she has something really important to tell me. She then proceeds to accuse me of "stepping on her toes", Like I am trying to one up her, take her job, make her look incompetent. Although it wasn't my intention. If I wanted to be mean spirited I wouldn't have told her what I was working on and took my idea to the director myself. It was like I was being shot down for being self sufficient. What the heck it that?! She then also proceeded to tell me that "She" wanted to be the one to come up with the forms, the ideas to pass on to the director. I was kinda in disbelief.

It's not in my nature to be mean but the older and older I get. The more I think, "it doesn't pay to be nice." If you're mean, evil and rude, at least folks will give you respect to your face and talk behind your back. If you're nice, people step on you, mistreat you, manipulate you.

This may seem minor but for me, it's like a continuous event of things that keep happening to me. Quite frankly I am getting really really tired of it happening to me.

Dear God please grant me the strength to persevere, and stay focuses. Allow me to adopt more assertive behavior. Bless me with peace of mind and bless me to be successful in my ventures.